Air to Breathe
Rain falls, patterns on the window pane
Silence in your head
Rocking on the edge of your bed
Tear drops, your drowning
Falling into you
A sense of loss is all you ever knew.
Lost in your head in the shadows of your mind
There is someone who longs to be free
Tortured by failure the horrors in your mind
Can you find your way back home to me?
Can you find the air to breathe?
Time flies, past turns to future
Pain starts to numb
Dwelling on the things that we’ve done
Ignite, as sparks fly
You’re calling out to me
Awaken, a world for you to see
© Out of the Gray, 2005
Broken Memories
Broken memories in my head
Silent echoes of the words you said
Drifting slowly through my dreams
Thoughts of you and the way it feels to hold you next to me.
(How would you ever know?)
(To hold you next to me)
In the river slowly drowning couldn’t let it be
Now you’ve gone and I have found just what you meant to me
Meant to me
Shattered hopes left in the rain
In each stranger I see you again
Drifting slowly through my days
Thoughts of us and the words you said before you turned from me
(How would you ever know)
(Before you turned from me)
In the river slowly drowning couldn’t let it be
Now you’ve gone and I have found just what you meant to me
After time will feelings fade and pain just slip away
Here and now as darkness falls there’s only me to blame
(How will you ever know?)
There’s only me to blame
© Out of the Gray, 2005
Butterflies
I always wanted somebody I could give my whole heart to
I wasn’t looking around but then I suddenly found it was you
I feel those butterflies alive
The way your face lights up divine
I sing you alibis to your surprise would I ever tell you lies?
But after looking at you listening I couldn’t pretend or disguise
I wanted you to know I tried
To make you love me more, I lied
You wear your heart upon your sleeve and it shows
But you won’t give it all to me until your sure, are you sure?
All the things that make me think of you will always spark a smile
Like running into you buying magazines and kissing over bars
And the way I feel I know you despite the lack of time
Well everything I see is so positive so I’ll no longer hide
© Out of the Gray, 2005
Dream between the lies
Come over, softly, softly,
Whisper to me all the words I want to hear
My hopes, my dreams, my fantasies
You lied to me, sweetly
You promised marble arches, golden domes and more
Told me you’d open doors to what I’d been looking for
I needed to believe
The dream between the lies
I never wanted to lose my way
(The lies) I never wanted to believe the dream between the lies
© Out of the Gray, 2005
Here I am
Picture of a rainy day, another wounded heart to play
Questions in my head
Asking for a second chance to see me as I really am
Not just the things I said
Come to judge me? Here I am
Last to play yout foolish games, first to lose them all the same
I only got myself to blame
Risked everything I have for you, put all of my belief in you
Had only me to see it through
Come to judge me? Well, here I am
Still you judge me? Here I am
I could run away, I could lose it all
I’d only have myself to blame
I could run away, I could lose it all
If I could face myself again
Here I am, surrender
Here I am, surrender
True enough, true to love, saw it through but it’s not enough
Strength to fight so I surrender
© Out of the Gray, 2005
Late Lunch
Bet you didn’t know that I’d been waiting
Timing every meeting without your saying
Holding back on lunches to pass your window
Making all the coffee’s to see you below
All the words I couldn’t say
As you passed by one more day
I would lie to him for you
Change my world and all I knew
And I’m such a fool for you
Can’t believe the things I’d do
To make you love me, to make you feel me too
(I know you know, how I’m feelin’, how I’m feelin’)
You’re playing games, should walk away
(Messed with my head, no returnin’, now I’m hurtin’)
To make you feel me to
Didn’t ever think how you’d be feelin’
You the one who’d given trust I’d been teasin’
My ears blinkered to shouts and reason (I would lie to you for her)
Seeing only what I want to believe in
© Out of the Gray, 2005
Misty Morning
In the misty morning you breathe
On my neck and whisper
See how we fit, made for each other
As you mold your body around mind
The seats carry the scent of our love
Feel me, don’t see me…
But the wind blew me north
And you’re still swimming in the south sea
And now that I’m home
You can see what you’ve done to me
Now I’m sat in this town all alone
Wishing I hadn’t left you
Did I have to?...
But the wind blew me north
And you’re still swimming in the south sea
And now that I’m home
You can see what you’ve done to me.
All these miles away
For me to finally say
I was losing myself
But it took all of me to walk away.
On this misty morning I breathe
Condensation of my belief
Hold on to what’s left of me.
© Out of the Gray, 2005
No lights that shine
My head is talking but my lips don’t move an inch
You look and smile at me, my face reacts the same
They think we’re perfect and sometimes you think the same
If only they all knew the things I couldn’t say
I see no lights that shine
Only a pack of lies
I see the love we had
The door is closing fast
Another day goes by, I’ve wasted time again
I fill up units wondering why you even came
Your patience kills me ’cos I don’t deserve a thing
The guilt I’m feeling makes these things feel like a sin
I see no lights that shine
Only the hurt inside
Your feelings don’t adhere
My mouth can’t talk with fear
Things have come between us baby
Things get in the way
Wish I had the words to say but they might drive me insane
Sometimes when you sleep at night these things could be arranged
Why can’t I just switch my thoughts off, say goodnight to my pain?
I see no lights that shine
Only a black, black life
I see the love we had
The door is closing fast
© Out of the Gray, 2005
Washed Away
Was a man in a back street draped in a long black cloak of shame
Carried dreams in his pocket, but he never gave away his name
All the angels came to see him, came to play him at his game
Swap their wings for the lies that he brings and to taste the rain again
They washed away, they’re washed away
She was sweet, had the world at her feet, all the boys captured in her eyes
All it took was a man in a back street and his sugar coated lies
Now the world’s just a memory and the boys all pass her by
All that’s left is a shadow of a girl, wish she’d never lost the light
She washed away, she’s washed away
Running from the mirror just to catch yourself again
Tryin’ to hold your head up high as you’re falling with the rain
Wipe the tears from your eyes
Tearing you apart so you never feel the same
Spinning your around like a hurricane
You’re an angel that’s died... inside
Was a girl in a back street in a long black dress of shame
Carried dreams in her pocket can’t believe she’s lost her name
She washed away, she’s washed away...
© Out of the Gray, 2005
Wind
Wind, how we go back so far
Twisting around like river turns
We can just change and the rain pours down
Shine, we are bright together
Blind in a world that it turns off
The sun has gone in and the clouds appear.
If things don’t wind, where’s the turn, where’s the shine?
Don’t know high or low
Without a shake, make or break we’ve no place to decide our fate
Sometimes I can see no light
Don’t know if I’m wrong or right
Treading on a bed of nails
Round the corner I can see
Little bits of history
Singing to me "keep the quiet"
Wind, how we go back so far
Shine, we are bright together.
© Out of the Gray, 2005